In other to claim and own my identity and at the same time authentically express my queerness amidst been in constant company of bullies and gatekeepers of toxic masculinity, I embraced weight lifting to buildup my muscles and learnt some punching skills for self-defense but at the same time, I never lost touch of my feminine gesticulation and hobbies such as singing, dancing, cooking and housekeeping which are socially conditioned as female roles.